i don’t want to reblog any abusers. if i unknowingly do, i understand if you don’t feel comfortable telling me and you’re not obligated to, BUT you can tell me if you do feel up to it and i promise not to be shitty about it. i want my blog to be safe for you!
Not only that but we went to a shop and I saw a top I liked. My first thought was “but I’m too fat for that cut!” to which a second thought answered “who cares? I’m hot!”
After years of finding myself gross and ugly, years of wishing I would one day wake up as a different person…
I woke up, as myself, and I liked what I saw in the mirror
And like, not just for one minute and the next day it was over. Everytime I’m looking at myself, I think “oh hey, looking badass here, cute smile, love your hair!”. It’s been four days now. I used to think I was always the “ugly friend” in any group of friends I was walking around with, but I realised I’m actually pretty cute. And that’s probably what Nick and all my loved ones see when they look at me.
I can’t explain how hysterical that makes me.
I didn’t change anything. I haven’t done anything. Nothing special happened. I just feel beautiful, worthy and happy and I don’t understand what the shit is going on and it’s scary but I love it. It’s like I’ve been on an adrenaline rush for four days.
<3 you’ll get through it ok. is there any other way you can contact your therapist? email or something? if not, try and make it a challenge for yourself to ring her, and then come up with a ‘reward’ to treat yourself with after xx
You were right! No, I only have my therapist number but she did call me eventually but I couldn’t answer her because I was in Belgium! Gonna call her first thing tomorrow!
It’ll be alright. I had a really rough night too and basically curled into a ball and cried my guts up. You can do this, and if you ever need someone to talk to or vent or whatever, I’m here❤❤❤. Stay strong
I hope you’re feeling better now and you’re just too fucking sweet omg. I’m doing well!
I’m so happy you’re feeling better! Now take some time to adjust to this new lifestyle. No one gets used to being depressed overnight, so why would the reverse be true? Apply plenty of self-care. *pompoms* Go you!
Yes I will! And my bro made fun of me for taking selfies and I didn’t gave a fuck!
You’re in Belgium? Me too! Jedi-hugs from closer-by! :D
Yes! For my dad’s birthday! We went to the museum and wandered around a lot. And my dad almost killed us ten times because he’s a terrible driver! But I made it alive! So it’s okay! And yay jedi-hugs! \o/
To those who sent me their kind wishes and support, thank you, you know who you are.
To those who sent me asks, I’m sorry I’m not answering. I’m not sure how to do it anymore.
I’m in a weird mental space right now.
In one hand, I’m feeling better and saner than I’ve been since… as long as I remember. I actually looked in the mirror yesterday and went “wow, I’m actually kinda hot… Wtf, when did that happened?”. After so many years of self hartred, self harm and dysphoria, this is pretty big.
In the other hand, while I’m feeling FINE (when the fuck did that also happened?), I realised that I’m trying to bring myself down again. I don’t know how to exist without the pain. I don’t know how to exist without my depression. I’ve been depressed ever since I was nine year old. How do you live without that pressure to keep you from exploding ?
I just don’t understand what’s going on anymore, nor WHY NOW, nor HOW, because nothing special happened. I just woke up and I felt good instead of wanting to crawl into a hole and die. Hell, I even found a new job (that I hate, but that’s beside the point)!
I just never expected how terrifying freedom feels.
Thousands of you reblogged images of Wendy Davis and talked all kinds of shit about Texas,
but OHIO already passed a harsher bill, 55 to 44 on Thursday.
The proposal in Texas requires physicians who perform abortions to have admitting privileges to hospitals within a 30-mile radius of their clinic.
Ohio takes it a step further: doctor’s providing abortions are not allowed admitting privileges in public hospitals.
The bill says the doctor must, “describe the development of nerve endings of the embryo or fetus and the ability of the embryo or fetus to feel pain at each stage of development.” Meaning, a woman undergoing an abortion in the first trimester — which is when many abortions happen — must be told her fetus is capable of feeling pain even though there is no conclusive medical evidence of this.
A physician performing an abortion must sign sign a “conflict of interest’ waiver stating how much money the doctor or his or her facility made from preforming abortions in the previous year. The physician must also provide a statement detailing how much money they or their clinic would lose if a woman decides to carry her pregnancy to term. Before performing the abortion the physician must give a woman these documents.
Under the law in Ohio, women seeking an abortion must now undergo an ultrasound no matter the circumstances of her pregnancy. There is no medical reason for a woman to undergo an ultrasound for a first-trimester abortion. States began to impose this procedure in the 1990s in what the Guttmacher Institute calls “a veiled attempt to personify the fetus and dissuade a woman from obtaining an abortion.
The new bill increases the mandatory wait time for a woman to receive abortion from 24 hours to 48 hours. The wait period cannot be bypassed unless “the pregnancy complicates the medical condition of the woman that the death of the woman would result from the failure to immediately terminate the pregnancy.” That means, for example, if a woman is raped —but is not teetering on the brink of death—she must wait the mandatory 48 hours and undergo all the above restrictions.
I reblogged this earlier, but I need you all to understand that this is of the utmost importance. We need your support. Please sign the petition. Please call him at (614) 466-3555. Please tweet him. Please trend #StandwithOhio. Please. Please. Please.
WOW IT’S GREAT HOW TUMBLR’S SOCIAL JUSTICE EXCITEMENT ISN’T INCLUSIVE TO LOW-PUBLICIZED EVENTS.
This is a HUGE issue and was completely overshadowed by the events in Texas. As a citizen of Ohio, I’m begging for you guys to help.
In case the above facts don’t convince you about how lacking and awful the state government is here, check these facts:
If a woman wants an abortion in Ohio, she MUST get STATE DIRECTEDcounseling that includes the counselor discouraging her from having an abortion. In addition, she has to wait 24 hours before that and having the abortion. The counseling has to be in person.
But wait, there’s more.
New plans under our health care reform onlycover abortion in cases where the woman is endangered. This means the plans are available in cases of rape and incest only. The same goes for insurance coverage in abortion coverage.
Since the counseling is state directed and evaluated, and there is a very specific and purposefully tight set of restrictions on the legality of abortions, the state has way too much control over the procedure itself. If a clinic or particular doctor don’t follow these tight rules exactly, they can be charged with manslaughter.
It is disgusting. We are told to love sex but never masturbate or fool around. To love our bodies but we have to be hairless, thin, have boobs, and to never wear make up to cover our flaws. We can like sports and watch them but we can’t play them unless they are toned down and pretty enough to be oggled at. We can be nerds but we can’t be TOO smart or we forget our place. We are told we need a prince charming and to seek him out by constantly changing ourselves and being perfect for him. We are given the message that outside beauty is what matters the most but if we have it and get successful it was because we have a pretty face. We are told we exaggerate and should just go with it when we complain of being objects and property. We are taught that being a woman is worthy of an insult… WE have to fear walking at night. WE have to go in a group if we need to use the bathroom in a strange place. WE have to be cautious of where we are and who we are with. That we are told to hush and get over it if we are assaulted because real life isn’t like the crime shows and it is harder to convict the assaulter. That female artists are degraded and yelled at in artist alleys. That you are judged just by how you wear a t-shirt.